I Wonder

All alone the broadening skies
Under the every night i will lie
Scratching claw and grip the rails
Every day my living hell
Oh god you know i've tried
I know how hard i tried
And oh i tried......
Hey i'd like to daze away to a
Place like no one has known
In a state of mind i could call mine
That only i could own
Where i could hum a tune anytime
I choose, and then there is no such thing as time
Where i can feel no pain just calm and sane
What a place for one to find
Now you see i'm watching everything
I do and they're watching everything i say
Why wont they leave me be?
Why am i even here? i wonder
You leave me wondering
Won't you stop watching me
I said they're watching me, watching me, watching me
Now in my corner i got the ceiling in my eyes
Arms holding up my knees
And rocking back and forth my life
I didn't mean to feel this way
When i walked into the door, lord
Then they ripped away my memories
And i cant remember who i was before.
And i only wanted to be 16 and free.
......and i wonder.