The Great Disappointment

I can remember a place I used to go.
Chrysanthemums of white,
They seemed so beautiful.
I can remember I searched for the amaranth.
I'd shut my eyes eyes to see.

Oh, how I smiled then, so near the cherished ones.
I knew they would appear...saw not a single one.
Oh, how I smiled then, waiting so patiently.
I'd make a wish and bleed.

While I waited
I was wasting away.
While I waited
I was wasted away.

I can remember... dreamt them so vividly.
Soft creatures draped in white,
light kisses gracing me.
I can remember when I first realized
dreams were the only place to see them.

While I waited
I was wasting away.
Hope was wasting away.
Faith was wasting away.
I was wasting away.

I never, never wanted this.
I always wanted to believe
but from the start I'd been deceived.

I never, never wanted this.
Inside a crumbling effigy,
so dies all innocence.
But you promised me…