My Oedipus Complex

I need somebody won't u help me
I need somebody won't you tell me who i am
I need somebody please please help me
I need somebody u must tell me who i am
I've been livin a lie so long it seems i've lived a life time
If u could see what i feel it would make your ghetto lood like heaven
And i believe it stems down from my family situation
I never liked my old man
I couldn't stand to be around him
Sometimes i sit all alone just starin at his picture
My heart turns to stone and i think of this

You never loved me you never held me tight
Instead u shook me like a beast to wake me up at night
U tried to make me think that your ways were best
When all i was was an outlet for all your stress

Life it's the ultimate sin
A game with no rules that you're expected to win
My personal hell's hidden with a grin
"dad take the stand and let the trial begin"
U said that oil and water don't mix though it seems cool
Keep with your own and don't fuck up our gene pool
U should've went to school like your bigger brother
But you played the fool with a different color
Runnin' ship with a whip
I tried to keep up but i kept getting tripped
Money made u so wise
How could u look thru my face and not see your own eyes
Do as i say and not as i do
But i can't cuz when i look in the mirror i see u
And oh the pain how it hurts
It was always your home and your business that came first
U said a man is as good as his word
But your mind was closed and mine never herd
They say the nut don't fall far from the tree
Look at u then look at me...

U ain't nothin to me u've never been to me
And all u ever gave a damn about was money see
So now fuck u man you ain't shit to me
And it's the day that i die of this hate that i'm free
Now i know growin up son that it ain't always been easy
And i know at times i was not always there for you
We never spent much time just talkin or havin a good time
But understand growin up son i never had a dime
So i worked my ass off and i put myself thru college
And everything i have to this day u know i built it all
Oh i wish i could go back and change the years that's lost between us
I wish i could take back some of the things i said to you
Son i said i'm sorry...
Son i said i'm sorry but still u resent me so
Son i said i'm sorry and why do u resent me so

I always loved u i always cared for u
Just never wanted u to go thru what i've been thru
I tried to raise my fuckin family just the best i know
And now i'm hated like the devil and for what i don't know
Dahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!