Tears, Sweat, and Allusions

Turned off by fear
And I cant remember what to do
I cant remember how to act
Dont remember whats true
I dont know where to turn to,
answers arent too clear
Or maybe they are truths to
which we cant hear

Left alone and waiting,
waiting for a cue
Tired of pretending
of knowing what to do

Ill run away into the night
Ill leave him here alone
Leave all this behind
left to be unknown
Ill finally fall down to my knees
Ill turn away and forget my memories
I cant explain the way
Ive felt for him from the very start
But everytime I see him
it just breaks my heart

Love is an allusion lived in fantasies
Reality is more confusion of that
from which we flee
Life is cold and bitter
we must struggle to survive
Dreams and my allusions
are what keeps me alive
I dont know where to turn to,
answers arent too clear
Or maybe they are truths
to which we cant hear

Left alone and waiting,
waiting for a cue
Tired of pretending
of knowing what to do

Wounds cant heal when
they keep tearing open
I cant see straight
cant see whos my friend
Who Ive loved has always been stolen
Im always driven out in the end
People take but do nothing because he's not mine
Why does this shit always happen all the god damn time
Im sick of it all
I can go with out him in my life
Im tired of all this pretending
Im tired of all the strife

Again return these feelings
of anguish and dispair
Again comes this
shocking pain that
I canty stand to bear
I dont know where to turn to,
answers arent too clear
Or maybe they are truths
to which we cant hear
Left alone and waiting,
waiting for a cue
Tired of pretending of knowing what to do